Tuesday, January 13, 2009

And A Big Question Ensues As a Result Of Blogging Ramble

I wonder if someone reads this blog-or even know it exists-and whether I'm the only one that understands/familiarise with this eccentric blog ramble?

Sunday, January 11, 2009

My Usual Profile Inlay

I am myself.


Known to dabble in an unseen amount of things. Interested in almost anything, really. Like the others, (as to not seem like such a primitive human being), I also like finer food and wine.

My dream is to know a little about most things, even the mystical things, and ofcourse secret knowledge. I already know a whole lot about a thousand useless things which I never learned in school as far as I recall. But that's still just a tiny fragment of things-that I decided to put up here.

Things like ideology, theology, theosophy, mysticism, metaphysics interests me in general, I intend to learn more toward those kind of subjects and studies, but mostly I can't remember everything that I want to learn because it's more than I can come up with in my mind as of now.

"In the woods, if alone, you have to survive on your own using your instincts. In the city, if alone, you get around using your wits and communication skills. Learning persuasion can also come in handy, especially if you want to become a good haggler - I think people generally underestimate the value of good haggling, its a shame they don't accept this sort of bargaining in the general stores. It's surprisingly social and psychodramatic. And why not make use of gemstones as well--for the day when paper-money for some reason becomes worthless shall certainly come--because of some unknown catastrophe that makes it useless." -- Swami Espen.

"There is more to the world than what meets the eye, only a few of us realise that we are almost completely blind in delusion. Someone likes to hide us in a carpet of ignorance, why we do it to ourselves all the time--by letting ignorance slip into our naive little brain as fodder to our own eventual demise." -- Swami Espen.

"My 'philosophy on life' or ideology is believing in myself to some extent, as a potentially potent individual, however, I am not solely mine own redeemer, for the people that I meet in life has and always will affect me in some way or the other. So I believe my path is almost as unpredictable as the ramblings of a madman." "I am neither enlightened nor un-enlightened, I might be some place in-between, but I let others decide what I am, by letting them reveal to me their perceived reality of my fragmented identity." -- Swami Espen.

"Ego -is- two things. Visible, or non-visible. Neither is any better, some just conceal their true nature and agenda. Transparent ego is, however, enlightened living." -- Swami Espen.

"Cold here though, but we got ourselves a huge ass forest up here with miles of path into the yet unknown depth of the forestry. Haven't seen rosemary elves yet, though, but a yeti-baboon stomping quickly past my vertigo in the distance - an albino squirrel jollily chasing the frightened yeti-baboon. Oh my he was scared to death that huge baboon. Needless to say our albino squirrels are quite bloodthirsty. You should see them some time, just remember to pick up on a bazooka and an industrial helmet. Wa-heeee...." -- Swami Espen.

Panoramic Image

Neslip stood energised before an elevated cliff. It was a special secret spot and usually a spectacular view. The foggy, dim-lighted, dusky atmosphere gave a gloomy yet pecular panoramic view in the near-early morning rise. It naturally shook him deep within to be able to even behold such a sight. He'd never seen it like this before! It could have been a dream, it mattered not though-it was nonetheless beautiful, and the feel and atmosphere was especially dreamy today. Something new happened to him after that day, one thing of atleast a certain essential quality. He was most perceptive and wise, he continued to grow in his approach of deepness of being in life and he found great depth in the world, that almost shook his spine at times.

Greslik sat down on an elevated cliff. He was weary in his legs. People said it was this 'secret' place. He'd heard much talk of all these 'special' places where ever people lived, whether it was located in the forest or somewhere else. It was nothing special he though, scratching the back of his head, and now he wanted to go home and rest on the couch. It gave him not much of an impression, but then again nothing really did. He had long forgotten to just be in his natural residence of being, so he missed out on alot of empty, yet substantial moments such as this. He had not managed to empty his mind on his journey to view and behold the beautiful panoramic forest scenery from the elevated cliffside. His world was lacking depth of view, so he never felt the depth of the life either. He might have had intelligence, but he did not ever obtain wisdom - that of perception and positive change. He had no depth.

Breath/Life, Its Impact, And The Arise Of Spiritual Awakening

Breath is life. Oxygen is the only factor that plays a key role in our ability to sustain our own body. A good breath is a breath that has quality. Ultimately this makes a good quality of life. Breath is evaluated in its ability to journey freely into the the lungs and belly. With too little oxygen to the lower abdomen, constipation can arise. It is a result of shallow breathing, in turn accelerating both anxiety and stress. This can also create disease of the body. In general, breathing shallow or not breathing properly will soon mirror a less functional and vital body. As we are all aware of, radiance and vitality can not be obtained without the knowing of breath and its undeniable impact on each and every one of us. Other than basic knowledge of its impact on us, experiencing through practice is to be the main focal point, as it is far more fruitful to base oneself on healthiness in person, and not theorising of its profound effects. That would make no sense. Spirituality arises first and foremost from the point on where you regulate and correct your own breath, and your potentially dangerous breathing habits. That is awakening of self-enquiry. Much like the Alexander technique brings greater awareness to bad postural habits while sitting in front of a computer or simply a malevolent habitual walk.

Ride on the wings of the calm and easy state of mind and being, don't fall before yourself, don't cease to take responsibility of control of yourself!

Letter To The Disheartened

Is it impossible for a person with a long path of darkness and suffering behind him/her-to contain this eventual happiness that surprisingly ensues when at the least expected so-as if manifestations of small glimmers of hope and illumination on what seems to always be daily strife and suffering-is it possible to contain this happiness for one who has always been deep into great despair? I think not. Although we survive, we do not treat ourself in the same degree of self-righteous compassion than those who are generally very happy. The ugly truth is that if you are somehow happy you are given all the gifts of good will and well-being, but mostly nothing if you are depressing. Fear not however, for thou art brave like a knight in shining armour!

There be no higher chances of happiness and success for those who are intelligent, high-energy beings, therefore some of us are bound to miserable states, acceptance may very well be the first step to find relief from the mental agony of that which proves only to be ceaseless if not surrendering upon.

Being too awake or aware of one's surroundings can be great suffering when the others crumble like maggots in comparison, but at the same time is integrated in their less awakened state without questioning-living fine and well in that unquestioning state on little to none spiritual awareness-the more awakened spirit beings certainly do question many things in order to see for themselves what is the real truth behind this--for themselves! Remarkable and glorious they are, radiant almost shining beings, protected by a mystical angelic contour, that never lets you slip away from this life of certain attachment-a life of utmost uncertainty.. willpower goes a long way.. so does one-pointedness of mind.

There is only a great deal of pain wrapped around in stories of the heads and minds of the men and women who thought too much for their own good, they did much work for the libraries to store of them, but a racing mind is not often a happy mind. Be brave enough to live, be proud enough to be one-pointed on the task at hand.. and you may just have challenged yourself in a new way.. which will lead you to what yet is a mystery to you, I would know, my days are strings of uncertainty, but I do what I do, and that is all that matters for now, as for you, and many others out there, it is of less importance-am I right-of what other people think of you, or even think for you.

You are your own will and the hopes for redemption may very well be very close to the end of the tunnel of despair!

Great blessings!

The Evil Eye

you sit there in your comfy couch,
pretending to enjoy your standing,
you queue me up like a self-imposed arrogant buffoon,
when in fact your every so often sarcasm,
is a concealment of your lack of understanding,
and you assume yourself to be an intellectual,
when you can barely understand english,
and you impose upon all manner of strange ideas about yourself,
but i know you are not like this,
because ive seen you crumble on the ground like a scared child,
in dire need of repentance,
before my evil eye,
it destroys you within,
all this nonsense assuming and imposing,
and you are actually scared of mine one evil eye,
because it is the only thing that proves that you are wrong,
in so many ways,
therefore the killing silence,
of mine evil eye,
gazing deep within,
perhaps penetrating through you,
like a newly sharpened spear,
and you believe im somewhat of a psycho,
when you are the real psycho,
my evil eye is righteous in its cause,
like a medieval spearman knight,
of anti-heroism and anti-valour,
for righteousness,
'tis my will

Sunday, January 4, 2009

How To Release Massive Energy

By the way this isn't fictional or untrue, it just happens that noone seem to know what this is, this technique of releasing massive electromagnetic energy, therefore I have not found any professionals' answers on this, because noone actually knows, other than me ofcourse, who have been experiencing with the technique and maybe some other people, but otherwise the technique is shown in Japanese martial-arts animes and the sort. In Bleach the animé for ex. releasing reiatsu (spiritual energy), and afterwards becomes depleted, so my assumption is it is inspired originally from reality or they wouldn't find inspiration to make those techniques in martial-arts animé shows.

I heard some rumours on a forum where we discussed this sort of thing and I've come to think it has something to do either with blood type, bloodline, or survival instinct (strong instincts), or something about metabolism (anabolism, catabolism related?) can't know for sure. All I know is that it is obviously a very rare gift that few (if any) have had any experience/knowledge of. Guessing it can be used for either creation (positive) or destruction (negative). I could maybe think that it is Kundalini-awakening, but it is based on certain triggering 'commanding' rather than just pure spontaneity. If it is indeed Kundalini-awakening, it is a 'trigger-controlled' Kundalini-awakening, which I've personally never read about before.

I remember when I was a little child. I was very active, outgoing, and I remember some times when I did something that I now later have seen Tibetan Buddhist-monks do in one of their 'secret' techniques. I jumped from a picnic table and down into a sandbox - landing in a sitting posture, much like lotus position - posture was taken in mid-air and then landing heavily in a static and stilled way. I didn't get hurt either, and I dunno why I did it, but for some reason I did it several times for some days, and then I can't remember doing it any more. It is to my surprise now that this can actually trigger Kundalini-awakening (the coiled serpent from the base of the spine). Mayhap it was the case. All I know is that I experience the symptoms of those who have awakened their Kundalini energy. And I am getting it's symptoms everytime I do this technique. I wonder if the supreme oscillating electromagnetic energy that surfaces is depleted, or burned up in the process.. can't say for sure as of yet. All I know is that it is better than any orgasm, any orgasmic feeling, it is far beyond, different.. like a very temporary cosmic/meditative orgasm. Through my processes of meditating, doing yoga, generally increasing prana or this universal life energy they call it I find that my 'releasing' technique only gets stronger and more intense.. it is now quite massive, but I fear to use it because I don't know for sure if it depletes me of my prana/universal life energy, as if tapping the source for temporary omni-potency. *grins*

Oh well. This'll be all.

So if you happen to know about this etcetera. Maybe you can do this sort of thing, if so, contact me and we can find out about this stuff. Meta-physicist stuff is a very interesting scientific subject.

Beyond that.. I don't want to give out too much information.. because I don't want to give it out to just anyone.. so.. whatever.

Comment To Someone's Recreative Habits Of The Week

"Need to regularly express myself, use to use a journal. Now here. But when I get stuck...."

Journalism is great stuff! But, like, it feels totally unnecessary when posting so much thoughts in here. I got a really nice journal with a dragon on the front and the dragon's backside on the back, it was a gift from someone I 'dated' a time back but we decided it was best to move on, didn't really work out the way we thought, so decided to just end the.. urm companionship, that what it's called? *confused* Anyway, it's the most awesomest journal I've ever had, maybe I'll be taking a picture and upping it on the site, if anyone'd like to see.

"exercise or get outside in the sun, nature"

But where IS the sun nowadays? If only I'd find the sun! Them gibberlings and kobolds say it has gone into.. slumberous duties. Nature, aight. Cold here though, but we got ourselves a huge ass forest up here with miles of path into the yet unknown depth of the forestry. Haven't seen rosemary elves yet, though, but a yeti-baboon stomping quickly past my vertigo in the distance - an albino squirrel jollily chasing the frightened yeti-baboon. Oh my he was scared to death that huge baboon. Needless to say our albino squirrels are quite bloodthirsty. You should see them some time, just remember to pick up on a bazooka and an industrial helmet. Wa-heeee....

"meditate on a scene from each season and then let it go into the next."

Sounds nice...

"repeat a prayer over and over again until racing thoughts go away"

And I can't believe Clint Eastwood had to pay two-thousand dollars to get instruction on transcendental meditation, which is just getting made your own random mantra and repeating it until your mind gets tired enough and retreats into some place in the head that people pay two-thousand dollars to go? LOL.

Reiki, ask for a blessing from my "spirit guides".

You can actually become a Reiki Grand Master without any external guidance. Hahah. It's simply thinking positive, transferring positive vibrations that oscillate out of you as an auric field and holding your hand where they have ache, headache, tension-headache etc. I wonder how Reiki works with more severe problems..

"Emotions. Getting in touch with emotions helps. Also, I like colors, anything colorful like a good movie with lots of colors in it."

Seen movie '23' with Jim Carrey? Nice scenarios, moods, lightwork. Also Bloodrayne has nice scenarios, sorta based on the video-game, but it's kinda nice nature and adventuring feel in it. Not such a bad movie as people may say if you like colors and backpacking adventuring.

Saturday, January 3, 2009

Just Another Thought

If we but refine ourselves enough to become aware of the subtler sensation, what if everything is there, always is, we just haven't a clue it's there, and whenever we become aware of what we were clueless of before, that we suddenly find to be reality, but at the same time finding out that what we already believe in to be true, is false, because our mind interprets in a limited manner?

An illusion because of limited/unrefined sensory perception, therefore sensory perception cannot feel/see?

Are our universal/infinite self our soul? Is soul beyond pure awareness? Is it beyond our grasp to learn about it's residence in ourselves?

Is the soul indeed the essence of our awareness, beyond our ability to be aware of, because we are immediately stimulated by the exterior world once we open our eyes as a newborn child?


And what about awareness. What is it? How are we able to define it's level or degree/quality? If there is integral awareness, what is then the opposite of that - external awareness? Is that detachment of self, and means of great suffering only?