Monday, October 17, 2011

Sleep Deprivation, Increased Fear, Impending Doom, Energy Rocketing.

sleep deprivation,
increased fear,
anxiety,
increased dread,
feelings of impending doom,
less stability,
rocking,
energy rocketing,

Sunday, October 16, 2011

Redemption, The Broken Circle. Fear Of My Thoughts, Mystery Draught.

after the healing grace,
redemption in the haze,
death took place,
no more healing i can face,
the fear,
the a shadow,
the broken circle,
fragments of endurance,

a mystery draught,
on the table,
i seek,
but shall not likely find,


Thursday, October 13, 2011

Days Of Withdrawal, Near Catatonia, Untold Suffering, Like Giving Birth, Rebirthing.

days of withdrawal,
exaggerated worry,
incessant dread,
going through it all,
this day's been a near catatonia,
deeper down the limbo of purification,
belies only untold suffering,
cannae afford to look so much back,
like giving birth,
the trauma is a lesson,
in suffering,
and birth,
my case rebirthing,



Sunday, October 9, 2011

Unholiness Of Spirit, Malignantly Adapted Awakening Process, Anchor Oneself, Kierkegaard.

life is meaningless in itself,
if we identify with the unholiness of our spirit,
we identify more or less with the welfare of our spirituality,
if the not so holy energy allows us to go beyond the normality of our daily triviality,
we become unnormal to a restricted perspective that most people then have,
in comparison to our newfound bliss,
hadn't it been such a bliss-value, it would not have been a wholly beneficial process,
rather a chance it be a degenerative one,
therefore it is safe to assume that man will go to great depths of profoundness,
into the creaks and corners of the mind that may not be pleasant at all,
all for the greater good,
motivation is always the awesome healing potential,
a degenerative process is not necessarily,
a malignantly adapted awakening process,
true freedom is without boundaries,
but without any boundary, there is infinitely difficult to anchor oneself,
suffice, there has to be a balance between space and earth communication,
the biggest dilemma would be to gain certainty in a too vast space,
kierkegaard tried to understand this, the degree of uncertainty,
is relevant to the qualia of anxiety,