Screaming Again (Poem)

to be as honest in acceptance of feeling good as with acceptance of feeling bad.
surrendering to the mindlessness, for the endless conjuration of mental chatter may never stop.
and the more they are allowed to shroud your consciousness, the more you will be deluded.
others will be fooled to think you are selfish, when in fact, you strive for selflessness, although they will never understand that.
and you shall suffer so much, needlessly, but you will not even see why anymore.
because you are too busy choking the fact that you are indeed suffering.. and suffering, like a tumour, it grows within the flesh, becoming larger and larger, until you have to scream, like a banshee.
somehow, miraculously, you feel relieved!
but you are certain that you will have to come back and scream again.
and again.
and again.